And on and on. hey guys.
its been a while since my last entry. But actually i dont have anything
interesting to talk about. I've been in a group interview of hollister.co on 18th
august but I didnt get a call after it. Then I've went to an open call of american
apparel on monday 21th august and actually it was really good, but they didnt
call me either. And dont forget the other million applications I've given to
employees. Its getting me really depressed. it sucks and i dont know why i
dont get a damn job.

So i went on with my job hunting but with no success so far.
At 26th august our australian guy Daniel arrived Canada and moved in our
apartment and for now we are sharing a room. We haven't any problems with
this and actually its really fun and with that I dont feel so alone in the night. I am
not used to be alone anymore and the last few weeks I felt quite alone and I
couldnt calm down nor could I sleep well. He is a funny guy, 25 years old an
he is studying concept art for the next 9 months and has just his orientation
week. He draws really well and it is interesting to watch him while drawing
some bodies or human.
Now I also start to train some drawing skills. But I've just startd 'cause I havent
drawn for years. So I am just beginning and I initial some human anatomy or
whatever I want to draw in order to get a feeling for it and to learn how to draw
these things.
I love watching him using the tablet, he is really good and fast. its cool to see
how a person gets expressions and formings and finally alive. He doesnt
need a long time to draw a human and I am trying to adapt what I see.
He has a lot of books like the anatomy of a human body and some guides for
concept art and quiet a lot of stuff which is about concept art or other books he
is interested in.
I am so impatient at the moment, I am wating for a mac book of my lovely and
gorgeous boyfriend. He will send me one and a coupon for a company that
makes a modbook out of it. Man, I am excited to have a macbookd or better a
modbook to do some photoshopping again. I am missing it and i want to
learn for my portfolia and my fucking dam slow laptop is gettin on my nerves
and its driving me crazy. i want to demolish it daily- but nooo, i can't.

At 27th August we've (Daniel and me) went to Dundas Square and Yonge
Street. We've just went along the Streets and had some looks at the shops
there. There have been really cool shops with vintage feeling, trash style or
second hand (i.e a second hand book shop, i love the aged book smell in it).
We've also had some Sushi in a really noble restaurant and 'yay' now I am
not a Sushi virgin anymore and I have to say, now its one of my favourite food.
The California rolls were the best and I am missing the taste of them right now
while thinking about them again. 'yammy'.


The next day we've went to the Queens Street West in order to see his
Univerisity and for me to leave some resumes just in shops that are hiring at
the moment. I left about 10 or 15 resumes in Queens Street West. I left my
resume in some boutique shops, shoes shops, some restaurants and one
video rental shop. But I am not expecting to get any call. I dont know why, but
at the moment its very hard to get a job for me. Maybe its because I am
german? Maybe because I am blonde? Maybe because I am a girl? What
the hell is wrong with me?!

After that day we've watched a movie called district 9, a really weird film I have
to say. But it was okay. Some different kind of movie, good to see some
variety.
At Saturday night 29th Daniel and me went to the big bop in Queen Street
West and we've listenend to some live music and had some canadian beer.
The bands were called Flatlined, Toy Box, Rise For Order and Gracefield
They really rocked the club and it was amazing. Toy Box and Gracefield
were my favourites. Daniel and me were jumping all the time and it was good
for me to come out and having some fun and listening to some live music.
apropos live music. I am missing my guitar and i cant do anything about it,
because i dont have the money for it.
Its really hard for me not being able to write some music and songs. I have so
much to sing about, but I cant afford me all the stuff I am missing right now.
I cant even have some fun with alcohol, clubs and music, because i have to
save the money for food and rental as long as I dont have any job.
Now i will go on with my job hunting and give it a try with some online
applications in craigslist. We'll see.
I am missing my boyfriend so much, I am daydreaming all the time and
sometimes I have really bad migrane because I am too much thinking about
back home, actually almost just about him and I am still restless because of
my currently situation. It makes me really sad and sick. Hope I will be better
next time.
cheers

And we went on.
We've visited many rooms for rent, but without any success.
One day we've had an appoitment with the previous tenant and we've had so much luck with him, jesus. He has started to be our friend, helped us in every single affairs of renting and ifirst of August we've moved in together. His name is Shadi and now he is our new roommate, that means: he is still living in his old appartment which have just become our appartment.
He knows how it feels being left alone in a strange country, with strange people, with no opportunities, so he decided to help us as a new friend. He believes in karma and he tries to do his best for the good one.
It always has been funny with him, he has made us laugh all the fucking time and it started to be bright for us, cause now we would have a place where we may go and which we can call home.
Its a really nice and quiet area. You can find nearly everything in this are: foodland, doctor, pharamacy, subway and this huge yorkdale shopping centre that has nearly everything: many apparal shops, beauity shops, coffee shops, a cinemar and all the other staff.

First few days we've started to get used to the new area, to our new roommate and friend and our new rooms [yey, finally we have got our own rooms, we've nearly started to get on our nerves, man]
At the moment its very damn hot outside and even inside. You can't breathe, you cant sleep, you can't move and the worst: you don't want to, cause its to wearisome. I hate heat. Anyway this much.

Now its 17th august and we are still looking for a job.
Today I've been in the mall looking for a job in many shops: Zara, Forever 21, Tim Hortons, Starbucks, Cineplex and Hollister Co.
Few days ago I've made some online applications for H&M, Tim Hortons [many] and American Apparal.
Today I've got a mail from American Apparal that if I'd be interested in any location in toronto I'm supposed to go to an open call on Mondays or Fridays in the locations of Dundas or of Yonge Street.
yay, maybe it should work out. :') I hope so. I'm really bitchy at the moment, because i havent anything to do. I really start to get lazy and then i start to get in really bad moods and in too much trouble with my thought- so, i really really need a fucking job now.

.say hello

Hey guys.
I know, i have been here in Toronto for a while, but I am just starting to tell you about life here.
I dont know exactly where I'm supposed to start right now.
I just try to write it chronological.


First few days. Hostel. July
After I've arrived the airport in Toronto I've slept in the Hostel 'Canadiana Backpackers Inn' in widmer St. for 2 Days. Canadiana Backpackers has been a great place with nice and individual people around the world [actually Toronto is full of them anyway].
I've met Brittini from the London of Canada and she was a very nice girl, actually the first with whom I've had my first accurate conversation.
She has been in Toronto for a while, but next day she had to leave again. We've talked about her new swarm who has been in the hostel too. (:

First day has been nothing special, I've visited the Orientation in SWAP and met Janina and Aaron that is a couple and also from Germany. I've emailed them some days before and they've answered me to meet them right there. They've been as easy going as I am, so we've decided to go ahead together from this time.
I've done my bank accounts and and I was allowed to move in their basement apartment, even it has had just one room. We've split the rent and we've looked for a new 3 room apartment to move in september first for the next 2 weeks. We've also looked for some jobs, but without any success so far.
Here is our first room we've had to share in a threesome in july: